Alright...Here We Go Again

I'm back...again. I am sorry for being so sporadic after promising to keep a schedule. I genuinely want to use this outlet for my writing, and my mental health is weird in that I get anxious about writing and about writing the perfect thing and all that stupid shit. I'm working on it, and I have a rough plan. I'm going to be posting regularly. I'm not going to give myself a specific schedule for now while I'm figuring out a new direction for this to go. This is no longer about my book. I'm still working on my book, but I've run into a dead-end creatively. For now, I'm going to shelve what I have and focus more on shorter works, scripts, and maybe even some poetry. I'm even considering using this blog daily in order to keep myself writing consistently, even if it's just word salad that I write once and don't edit. I want to do this, and I feel like I only sabotage myself by giving myself a "break." I am self-aware enough now to acknowledge that I'm making excuses not to post on here. I know that I need to give myself the freedom to write whatever's in my brain, even if it doesn't turn into anything bigger than a short blog post. Those are my thoughts right now, and I'm going to aim for another post on either Friday night or Saturday. I don't want to fall into a rut or get comfortable with not pursuing my dreams just because I have a more stable job. I didn't get into writing for the money or the stability. I got into theatre for the same reason I got into creative writing: because I love it. I know that storytelling is what I'm supposed to do, and the only way that's going to happen is if I allow myself to tell stories in whatever way I can, even if the story doesn't really go anywhere. There will be ideas that I hold onto, and the only way to get to them is through a lot of ideas that I won't. Thank you for sticking with me, and I'll be back by this weekend. Goodbye for now!